b'willanddetermination.felt disconnected because my But when depression hit, Ijoy was gone.realized I was mentally andBefore I knew Christ, my emotionally weak. I tried todepression and inability to hide it. I stayed indoors forrely on myself exposed the months, avoided people, anddepths of my brokenness. hoped no one would discoverItshowedmemysinhow broken I was. I was asomethingonlytheHoly physicianI was supposed toSpirit can reveal. I was lost, be the strong one, the healer. and I tried everything to find A f terIc a metofa it h,healing. I explored different depression took on a differentreligions,butnomatter kind of pain. The hardestwhere I looked, I couldnt part was not being able tofind the right path. The truth feel joy or Gods presence.is, I couldnt find the path on I had no appetite, lost 30my own. God had to come pounds, and had no energyfind me. His overwhelming to work. Sometimes I wouldlove and divine providence just sit and stare into theshattered my old life and led sky. Yet even then, I had ame to faith in Jesus Christ.flicker of hope. I had to turnEven as a believer, I went to God moment by moment throughanotherboutof not to myself, but to Him.depressionbut this time, I I was thankful to have asought Gods help from the community that loved mevery beginning. Like Peter and listened deeply. Still, Isaid, To whom shall we go? 12'