愛東泥 

因著耶穌的名，每天早晨我醒來，都喜悅地無條件地降服於祂的旨意，信靠祂，於是我的一天都因祂而充滿活力。 

我是耶穌忠誠的僕人。 

2017年1月，我應邀去到一間教會，在那裡我被一種陌生的愛和憐憫淹沒，雖然我以前曾經決志過，但因為種種原因遠離了信仰，而這一刻我重新被神觸摸，決志要成為一位真正的基督門徒，我對牧師說：「你是我的牧師，這裡是我的教會，我要參與，我應該在哪裡報名？」  

之後我常常跟著那些弟兄和一位姊妹（其中一位弟兄的妻子），觀察和效法他們的行事為人，在我的信仰路上，他們每個人都以自己的方式幫助我信心成長和生命成熟（這是我非常缺乏的）。 

自那時起，每年夏天我都跟隨其中一位弟兄參加YSMP，服事阿帕契人。YSMP燃起了我對更多宣教工作的愛和渴望。 

因為有耶穌的愛，我也能不斷禱告，學著怎樣將Agape的愛實踐出來，這在服事中對我有莫大的幫助，使我能夠做出與「老我」本性相反的事，克服不適，甚至能苦中作樂。 

一位與我一同參加YSMP的教會朋友，在一次主日學課後的午餐桌上走向我。他告訴我，他正在組建一個團隊，以傳福音、培訓門徒和建立教會為目標，他問我要不要參加。 

我內心明白這就是我要做的事情，於是我答應了，我很榮幸能夠參與。由於我們的目的地是中國武漢，我的朋友目前正在教我中文聖經詞彙，用來傳福音的語句和問題，還有中文歌曲。我渴望能夠流利地說中文，以便自己在這項事工上更好地被主使用。我愛阿帕契人，同樣的，我也愛中國人，甚至更深，特別是對武漢人。  

目前我正在禱告中尋求神的完美旨意（而不是我所認為的神的旨意），我盼望神能差遣我去武漢、拿到那裡的居住證；若蒙神恩典時間足夠，也能在接下來的三、四十年中事奉那裡的人。這是我對至尊貴的主耶穌的最終渴望與懇求。 

His Devoted Slave 

Tony Porras 

For His Name’s Sake, I delight in my unconditional surrender to His will every wakeup, and trust in Him, and thrive, as a result. 

This is who, and what I am, His devoted slave. 

January 2017, I responded to an invitation to attend church, immediately became a nice Christian, until the love and compassion (alien experiences for me) overwhelmed me and I announced to my Pastor, “You are my Pastor and this is my Home Church, I want in, where do I sign?” 

I decided then and there I would attach myself to the men and one woman (the wife of one of the men), and observe and mimic their behavior, responses, and attitudes, and along the way they each helped me in their own way to grow and develop maturity (which I was sorely lacking in). 

I tagged along with one brother every summer since (except 2020 due to Covid 19) to the YSMP, where we served the Apache people, and where I developed a love and desire for more missionary work. 

Through His love I learned and prayed for and now put in practice Agape, which has helped me tremendously in the field, doing things contrary to my nature, and overcoming discomfort, and reveling in privation and hardship.  

A friend from my church whom I met at YSMP approached me one day after Sunday School, at the lunch tables. He told me he was putting together a team to evangelize, train and develop disciples, and church plant. 

Within myself I realized that this is what I NEED to do, so I said yes, I would be honored to be included. Being our destination is Wuhan, China, my friend is currently teaching me Chinese biblical words (terms?), combining them in evangelical statements and questions, and Mandarin songs. My desire is Mandarin fluency, to enable me to do my part in His work. 

The same type of love I have for the Apache people is only enhanced for Chinese people in general, and Wuhan residents in particular. 

I am currently praying for His perfect (not permissive) will to send me to retire in Wuhan, get a green card, and serve Him there for the next 30-40 years, should He permit to serve Him that long. This is my ultimate desire and supplication to His Majesty Jesus. 

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