爱东泥 

因着耶稣的名，每天早晨我醒来，都喜悦地无条件地降服于祂的旨意，信靠祂，于是我的一天都因祂而充满活力。 

我是耶稣忠诚的仆人。 

2017年1月，我应邀去到一间教会，在那里我被一种陌生的爱和怜悯淹没，虽然我以前曾经决志过，但因为种种原因远离了信仰，而这一刻我重新被神触摸，决志要成为一位真正的基督门徒，我对牧师说：「你是我的牧师，这里是我的教会，我要参与，我应该在哪里报名？」  

之后我常常跟着那些弟兄和一位姊妹（其中一位弟兄的妻子），观察和效法他们的行事为人，在我的信仰路上，他们每个人都以自己的方式帮助我信心成长和生命成熟（这是我非常缺乏的）。 

自那时起，每年夏天我都跟随其中一位弟兄参加YSMP，服事阿帕契人。YSMP燃起了我对更多宣教工作的爱和渴望。 

因为有耶稣的爱，我也能不断祷告，学着怎样将Agape的爱实践出来，这在服事中对我有莫大的帮助，使我能够做出与「老我」本性相反的事，克服不适，甚至能苦中作乐。 

一位与我一同参加YSMP的教会朋友，在一次主日学课后的午餐桌上走向我。他告诉我，他正在组建一个团队，以传福音、培训门徒和建立教会为目标，他问我要不要参加。 

我内心明白这就是我要做的事情，于是我答应了，我很荣幸能够参与。由于我们的目的地是中国武汉，我的朋友目前正在教我中文圣经词汇，用来传福音的语句和问题，还有中文歌曲。我渴望能够流利地说中文，以便自己在这项事工上更好地被主使用。我爱阿帕契人，同样的，我也爱中国人，甚至更深，特别是对武汉人。  

目前我正在祷告中寻求神的完美旨意（而不是我所认为的神的旨意），我盼望神能差遣我去武汉、拿到那里的居住证；若蒙神恩典时间足够，也能在接下来的三、四十年中事奉那里的人。这是我对至尊贵的主耶稣的最终渴望与恳求。 

His Devoted Slave 

Tony Porras 

For His Name’s Sake, I delight in my unconditional surrender to His will every wakeup, and trust in Him, and thrive, as a result. 

This is who, and what I am, His devoted slave. 

January 2017, I responded to an invitation to attend church, immediately became a nice Christian, until the love and compassion (alien experiences for me) overwhelmed me and I announced to my Pastor, “You are my Pastor and this is my Home Church, I want in, where do I sign?” 

I decided then and there I would attach myself to the men and one woman (the wife of one of the men), and observe and mimic their behavior, responses, and attitudes, and along the way they each helped me in their own way to grow and develop maturity (which I was sorely lacking in). 

I tagged along with one brother every summer since (except 2020 due to Covid 19) to the YSMP, where we served the Apache people, and where I developed a love and desire for more missionary work. 

Through His love I learned and prayed for and now put in practice Agape, which has helped me tremendously in the field, doing things contrary to my nature, and overcoming discomfort, and reveling in privation and hardship.  

A friend from my church whom I met at YSMP approached me one day after Sunday School, at the lunch tables. He told me he was putting together a team to evangelize, train and develop disciples, and church plant. 

Within myself I realized that this is what I NEED to do, so I said yes, I would be honored to be included. Being our destination is Wuhan, China, my friend is currently teaching me Chinese biblical words (terms?), combining them in evangelical statements and questions, and Mandarin songs. My desire is Mandarin fluency, to enable me to do my part in His work. 

The same type of love I have for the Apache people is only enhanced for Chinese people in general, and Wuhan residents in particular. 

I am currently praying for His perfect (not permissive) will to send me to retire in Wuhan, get a green card, and serve Him there for the next 30-40 years, should He permit to serve Him that long. This is my ultimate desire and supplication to His Majesty Jesus. 

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