林以謙

耶穌曾經說過：「我來本不是召義人悔改，乃是召罪人悔改。」（路加福音5:23）以謙弟兄在今年的感恩見證會上為我們分享了耶穌在他生命中三次把他尋回的事蹟。

第一次尋回——母腹中的揀選。

我從小就生長在基督教家庭。我在小學的時候就開始讀聖經、上主日學。我感謝神，早在我懂事之前，神就為我預備了一個很好的環境來認識祂、跟隨祂。然而，我對聖經的教導並不明白，即使學習了也僅是在字面上的理解，我並沒有真心地跟隨耶穌、活出聖經的教導，也沒有與神建立一個好的關係。我更多的時候，是跟著世上的大家一起追名逐利，而不是去追尋救主耶穌。我在這個過程中感到迷失。我雖然屢次追尋到了自己渴望的成功，但在短暫的喜悅之後，伴隨著的是巨大的壓力與不安全感，因為我害怕無法持續維持自己的榮耀，也害怕追尋不到下一個成功。於是，就有了耶穌第二次把我尋回。

第二次尋回——迷失時的指引

在大學三年級的時候，我感到非常的迷失。有天我向神禱告說：「主我想信靠你，但同時我又不知道你是不是真實存在的神，求你回應我的禱告。」我感謝神在我信心最軟弱的時候，立刻就回應了我的禱告。在禱告第二天，在食堂吃午餐時，就有兩位弟兄來到我身旁，問我願不願意多多認識耶穌。感謝神，在我迷茫的時候，感動弟兄來幫助鼓勵指引我。於是，在第二次被耶穌尋回後，我開始比較多地去主日聚會、團契。但我心中依然貪戀著這個世界，沒有全然真心地去追尋主耶穌。對於聖經的教導，我其實也仍是一知半解，甚至有許多錯誤的理解。但感謝神，願意在當時冥頑不靈的我心中賜下一個感動：就是知道自己的信仰狀態並不好，並且默默渴望著一個轉機。

第三次尋回——轉機與成長

感謝耶穌，第三次把我尋回，回應了我內心的這份感動。大學畢業，我跟著同學們一起申請出國讀書。起初我是想申請碩士，最後卻意外讀了博士，還意外地來到了洛杉磯。現在回頭看，這都不是意外，是神偉大的安排。藉由在這裡讀博士班，我能夠在這個認真學習聖經的教會待好幾年，更因為博士班單純的生活，讓我能心無旁騖地去接受建造。神透過一次次的聚會、團契、查經班、還有門徒訓練，逐漸更新我的內心。現在我終於懂得要一心追尋耶穌，並看重我跟耶穌的關係，勝於世上的一切。回顧過去幾年，我認為在實驗室學習做研究、拿學位都只是其次。我最大的收穫，就是能有這樣一段完整的時間去學習神的話語、學習如何做主門徒，並跟神建立一個美好的關係。神讓我真實去經歷到了，要先去求祂的國和祂的義，而其他的神都會加給我們。博士班這幾年非常忙碌、充滿著各種挑戰，但我的內心滿有平安、喜樂與盼望。這是曾經的我，在離棄神時所無法感受、甚至想像的。這就如腓立比書 4:7所說：「神所賜出人意外的平安，必在基督耶穌裡保守你們的心懷意念。」

      耶穌說：「我就是道路、真理、生命。」我從小就讀過這段話，卻沒有真心地去追尋耶穌。我自傲地覺得可以靠著自己的能力去摸索出自己的道路、自己的真理、自己的生命。現在當我回頭看這段過去，我看到的是一個很自以為是、不討神喜悅的人。但在這後面，更重要的是，我看到了神的大愛與恩典。面對這樣一個屢次不順服的人，神不是把他趕出家門，而是有耐心地，一次又一次把他尋回。

      聖經裡面有個浪子回頭的比喻，講的是一個小兒子跟父親要了屬於他的那份家產，要出去獨立生活。拿到大筆金錢後的小兒子過著放蕩的生活，最後花光一切、窮困潦倒，才痛定思痛地回來向父親認錯。而他的父親不但沒有責備他，反而是張開雙手歡迎他，甚至大擺筵席慶祝。這個比喻，就是耶穌對待我們的態度。神曾經任憑我去摸索自己的道路，因為祂知道，自傲的我需要經歷過一番跌跌撞撞之後，才能真心悔改，然後謙卑地回到祂的面前。並且，當我真心悔改之後，神也如這個父親一樣，立刻張開雙手來擁抱、接納我。我被神這份超越一切的愛深深感動，並決定要一心跟隨耶穌。

      感謝神的信實、耐心、與慈愛，我今天才能在這裡分享神在我生命中的大能。願一切榮耀歸於主耶穌基督。

Testimony of Jason Lin

Jesus once said: “I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” Today, I want to share three instances when Jesus sought and found me in my life.

The first time Jesus sought me was when I was born. I was born in a Christian family. I began reading the Bible and attending Sunday school as a child. I am grateful that God prepared a nurturing environment for me to know and follow Him at such a young age. However, I did not truly understand the teachings of the Bible. Even though I learned them, my understanding was superficial, and I didn’t sincerely follow Jesus or live out the Bible’s teachings. I also failed to establish a good relationship with God.

Instead, I often followed the world in pursuing fame and wealth rather than seeking the Savior, Jesus Christ. In this process, I felt lost. Although I achieved some of the successes I desired, the fleeting joy was followed by immense pressure and insecurity—fearing I couldn’t maintain my glory or attain the next success.

The second time Jesus sought me was when I was in my junior year of college. During my junior year of college, I felt deeply lost. One day, I prayed to God, saying, “Lord, I want to trust in You, but I am unsure if You truly exist. Please respond to my prayer.” I am grateful that God answered me when my faith was weak. The very next day, while eating lunch in the cafeteria, two brothers in Christ approached me and asked if I wanted to learn more about Jesus.

After being found by Jesus for the second time, I began attending Sunday services and fellowship more regularly. However, my heart was still attached to worldly things, and I didn’t genuinely pursue the Lord Jesus. My understanding of the Bible remained shallow and even incorrect. Even so, I thank God for placing a stirring in my heart at that time—an awareness that my faith was not in a good state and I was longing for a turning point.

Jesus responded to the movement in my heart as he sought and found me for the third time. After graduating from college, I applied to study abroad with my classmates. Initially, I aimed to apply for a master’s degree but unexpectedly ended up pursuing a Ph.D. in Los Angeles. Looking back from today, I finally understand that this wasn’t a coincidence—it was God’s grand plan. By studying in a doctoral program here, I had the opportunity to spend several years in this church, which diligently studies the Bible. Furthermore, life as a Ph.D. student has few distractions, allowing me to focus on spiritual growth. Through countless gatherings, fellowships, Bible study sessions, and discipleship training, God gradually renewed my heart. Now, I’ve learned to wholeheartedly pursue Jesus and prioritize my relationship with Him above all else. Looking back, I realize that learning to conduct research and earn a degree was secondary. My greatest gain was the time to study God’s Word, learn how to be a disciple, and build a relationship with Him. God allowed me to truly experience the truth of Matthew 6:33: “Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Although my doctoral studies were busy and challenging, my heart was filled with peace, joy, and hope—something I couldn’t feel or even imagine when I was away from God. As Philippians 4:7 says, “The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” Although I read this verse as a child, I never truly sought Jesus. Arrogantly, I believed I could carve out my own way, discover my own truth, and define my own life. Now, looking back at my past, I see a person who was self-righteous and displeasing to God. But more importantly, I see God’s immense love and grace. Despite my repeated disobedience, God did not cast me away. Instead, He patiently sought me again and again. The Bible tells a parable of a prodigal son—a younger son who asked his father for his share of the inheritance and left to live recklessly. After squandering everything and falling into poverty, he finally decided to return and confess his wrongdoings to his father. Instead of rebuking him, the father welcomed him with open arms and even held a feast to celebrate his return.

This parable reflects how Jesus treats us. God allowed me to explore my own path, knowing that my pride needed to be broken through trial and error before I could genuinely repent and humbly return to Him. And when I truly repented, God, like the father in the parable, immediately embraced and accepted me with open arms. I am deeply moved by God’s love that surpasses all understanding and have decided to follow Jesus wholeheartedly. Thanks to God’s faithfulness, patience, and compassion, I can share His power in my life today. May all glory be to our Lord Jesus Christ.

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