b' Caosorry, youre seeing me in abut one thing different was I state like this. I am a mess,found myself beginning pray-andImahorrible,horribleing again. Sometimes I would person. I am so full of sins.beg to die, but sometimes I This world is so full of sins,wouldjustcheckinwith andIamso,solonely.ImGod. Sometimes I apologize, tired of the world. I know mysometimes I ask for help. For lifewassupposedlyagift,the first time in a long time, I butIhaveneveraskedforfelt like Jesus is close to me, it.So,God,ifyouloveme,thatheslikeafriendthat if you are realtake me ingenuinelycaresaboutme. yourarmstonight.LetmeThe love and care I had not leave the Earth, end my lifefelt in such a long time. here, tonight. Bring me homeSummerrolledalong,andI where I can be with you, be- decided to go to the church cause I see no purpose in mes u m m e r c a m p . W e i r d l y being here anymore.enough I felt something was NowthatIthinkofit,howpushingmetowardsgoing, rudewasItoquestionGodand that I needed it. I went, andtotesthim.Butbackanditalteredmypathfor-then, it was as if I was des- ever. It was not the sermon peratelypleadingfortheor a testimony that touched end.Well,obviously,Ididme,butrather,agameof notdiethatnight,andthetruth or dare. It was a time I next morning I woke up dis- finally laughed, felt joy with traught and confused, emp- brothers and sisters, and felt tiness in my chest weighing.the love of Christ in us as a For weeks it stayed the same,group.Thatnight,Ishared 58'